I will never forget the feeling of disgust I felt as I was driving towards the Taco Bell drive thru each morning.
After hitting a year on my plan, and with my husband’s support, I decided to compete. After months of strict training and a devastating loss on stage, I felt as if all my work meant nothing. I had desperate thoughts of redemption on my mind, and suddenly all I wanted to do was WIN something. At this point, my amazing trainer asked me to take a step back and evaluate what it was I wanted out of all of this. He told me that even if I had won that would not make me feel any better. He said “what makes you happiest? What makes you want to get up every morning?” When I had no answer to give him I knew I had some soul searching to do. I realized then that I was not happy existing in the all-or-nothing mentality. I was happiest when I felt in control of my life and my food choices, but also wasn’t depriving myself. Instantly I knew that I wanted to help other people feel that way too.
Food is just food, and when you place any more importance upon it than that, you give it control.